.speak now or forever hold your peace.

im in texas. its the hottest piece of shit that youll ever go. its brutal. oh well. im the only person that is actually considered cool here. haha. either that or im considered a freak. both are great titles. im so bored. and i miss my friends. im slowly going insane and i love it. <333

today was okay. nothing extremely boring. i got a new pair of shoes. all black hightop chuck taylors. i found out that christina cant come over and have sex w/ me. heh. her parents are too sick and she would have to get up early in the morning to do something. awh. thats too bad. well she came over yesterday and we had fun. she flipped out my newly cut hair. shes in love w/ my hair. i love my hair too. we walked to the disgusting weinershnitzel place. i wanted to throw up. but we went to subway and had some cookies. during that whole eating session we got five honks and shouts. [reminding you that we were only out for about twenty minutes] i think that those men [or women] were blind. if they werent then they raised my self esteem. :] ive been thinking that nobody cares about me or anything. kids nowadays dont give a fuck about anything. nobody understands me. i want a boyfriend. [if anybody wants me. please i m me at xXdianaisweirdXx. hahaha. ] i want someone there for me who i can talk to until the late hours of the day. i want him to love me for who i am. <3 i want him to be honest w/ me about everything. tell me when something is on his mind and blah blah blah. i want something real. everything is falling apart and i hate it.  :[  xOxOxO. <333

.tears stream from my unwanted eyes.

monday was great. i loved it. i went to christinas and went to the lakewood mall. i got some clothes and we watched finding nemo. cute. i even made a new friend. i love eriq. hes the best. weird. but the best. i love him so much. christina was blushing every second. so dumb. but i love her. todays really really boring. i hate it. i talked to my dad. im leaving on the 24th to dallas then on july 1 to germany. i wont come back till the 26th of august. well ill go.

yes. i dont even update this anymore. its sad. i kno. but i really dont care. im going to germany and itll be great. im getting my nukkas some shirts. so im on the computer looking at livejournals, melos, and xangas. i cant even believe how fucken ugly ppl are. wut the hell do they see when they look in the mirror. are they like, "yea. im fucken hot." no. theyre not. its gross. i kno that im not a freaken beauty queen but damn. i look better than a lot of ppl out there. yes. not really but okay. im cutting my hair and doing shit to it all next week. itll be a party. i have to go get molested by my best friend now. bye babay. xOxOxO

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